I want to write to you now about loss. Not simple loss, which indeed exists. One can say: “I’ve lost the key to my car.” This is unfortunate if not inconvenient but nothing to grieve. I want to write about difficult loss, indistinct loss, ambiguous loss. A loss I can’t quite put my finger on. And yet it’s there, inside me day and night, what a phantom limb might feel like.
This letter is going to be longer than my first and second letters because I’ve a lot to say about things I never thought I would say.
You are not the only friend with whom I feel a yawning abyss growing between us on account of this massive, orchestrated human calamity. There are others, like you and me, because we happen to disagree on what’s been happening in our world the past two years. One friend—or former friend—looks right past me whenever we happen to run into each other in our town’s small post office. Another, on his afternoon walk, marches to the other side of the street when he passes my house. These are both people I used to host for meals in my house or for a lovely summer evening glass of wine on my patio. There’s another who, on my Facebook page, called me “an old man spewing conspiracy theories.” (She is wrong on both counts, by the way.) There’s yet another and her husband with whom my girlfriend and I would have dinner out once or twice a year. Last December, I emailed her to suggest we get together soon; it had been two year since we’d last met up. She wrote back to say “we’re not getting together with friends who aren’t vaccinated, definitely not indoors.”
And there’s you, who, because you know I’ve not gotten the jabs and never will, disinvited me to your wedding and disallowed me the opportunity to finally meet your fiancé because of your persistent and naïve belief that the unvaccinated are somehow going to spread the virus more than you and others who’ve gotten the jabs. This is a complete lie spread by the despots driving the world into the ground while they rake in billions of dollars to feather their ludicrously opulent nests. Word is out, loud and clear for those with eyes to see and ears to hear, that not only are the injections not effective against COVID-19 but they’re also driving an increase in infections.
In other words, the vaccinated are infecting each other. Reports are coming in from around the world that COVID-19 hospitalizations and deaths are skyrocketing in countries with the highest vaccination rates, including Australia, Israel, and Scotland. Israel now has the highest case rate per capita of any country in the world since the beginning of the so-called pandemic. The reason? Government data suggests people who have gotten at least two jabs are now showing signs of serious immune system degradation. There’s also evidence that “all-cause” mortality, or deaths of all causes, is spiking in countries with heavy vaccine compliance. In spite of this, in many countries around the world—including here in the States—the injections continue to be touted as being safe and effective. In a world where reason and logic prevail, no one in his right mind would be saying this. Or say it and get away with it.
But it’s not just friends I’m losing over this, as if that isn’t hard enough. There’s far more to it than that and it’s the source of a nearly inconsolable grief. It’s my sense of the world as being a generally rational place, a world a causality and where most human phenomena could be explained and understood, even if only by plumbing the depths of the unconscious or by connecting the dots of coincidence and synchronicity or even going so far as seeing our lives as a kind of entertainment for the gods, as the Greeks of Homer’s time did. Our world now is no longer that place; it is no longer rational or logical or explicable by any stretch of the imagination. Even those gods of old have abandoned us like children bored with their playthings. Nothing makes sense and there is no comfort in nothing.
To wit: As your friend, I warned you with specific details from renowned doctors and scientists about the dangers of the experimental jabs but you ignored me and went ahead and got them anyway. As your friend, I told you about the lies and fears shoveled into our brains by governmental mandarins, the corrupt pharmaceutical cartel, and the captured mainstream media to sucker you into being injected, but you believed them instead of me. As your friend, I told you about the insidious creation of digital “vaccine passports” as a way to usher in the escalation of tyrannical surveillance technologies the likes of which the free world has never known, and apparently you think nothing of it because, you say, you have nothing to hide. None of this makes sense to me. Much of the world has simply gone completely haywire. I just don’t get it. And while I might console myself by believing that the elusiveness of comprehending life itself in any age is the answer—as in we can never fathom the will of God—it is a cold comfort.
It is a cold comfort because I’m beginning to understand that the will of God has nothing to do with this treacherous conquest of so many hearts and minds. In the First Century C.E. Pauline Letter to the Ephesians, we read: “For our struggle is not against enemies of blood and flesh, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers of this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.”
This passage has been cited these days by those who believe we’re indeed in the thick of a spiritual battle. But these past many months I’ve not been able to cast in my lot with those who believe this. I’d turned to a more recent, analytical idea to seek understanding, the “mass formation” theory. Mattias Desmet, a psychologist and a statistician at the University of Ghent in Belgium, realized that this form of mass hypnosis can account for the strange phenomenon of up to 30 percent of the population in the Western world becoming entranced with the dominant narrative concerning the safety and effectiveness of the toxic jabs propagated and enforced by politicians, science bureaucrats, pharmaceutical companies, and corporate media.
What’s happened, Desmet believes, is those who have fallen under the spell of this kind of mass hypnosis are completely unable to process new scientific data and facts demonstrating that they have been misled about the effectiveness and adverse impacts of mandatory mask use, lockdowns, and the jabs. I’d read about this in, among other places, a newsletter by Robert W. Malone, M.D., the inventor of the core mRNA vaccine technologies, who was recently interviewed by Joe Rogan warning against the use of the current strain of COVID-19 jabs and, as you probably know, caused quite a stir on account of it. Malone writes:
“These hypnotized by this process are unable to recognize the lies and misrepresentations they are being bombarded with on a daily basis, and actively attack anyone who has the temerity to share information with them which contradicts the propaganda that they have come to embrace. And for those whose families and social networks have been torn apart by this process, and who find that close relatives and friends have ghosted them because they question the officially endorsed ‘truth’ and are actually following the scientific literature, this can be a source of deep anguish, sorrow and psychological pain.”
This reminded me of a much earlier work, The True Believer: Thoughts on the Nature of Mass Movements by Eric Hoffer. I took the book off my shelf and flipped through some of the pages to see that I had underlined several passages when I’d first read the book many years ago. Here’s a sampling: “The facts on which the true believer bases his conclusions must not be derived from his experience or observation but from holy writ…. Passionate hatred can give meaning and purpose to an empty life…. Propaganda by itself succeeds mainly with the frustrated…. There can be no mass movement without some deliberate misrepresentation of facts.” Holy writ (the mainstream narrative). Passionate hatred (scorn and punish the unvaccinated). Propaganda (the vaccines are “safe and effective” so line up and get the jab already). Deliberate misrepresentation of facts (inflated number of deaths due to COVID-19). It’s all driving this agenda right here, right now. Same as ever.
I latched onto these ideas of mass formation and the true believer like a drowning man clinging to the side of an overturned life raft tossed about on a vast ocean of COVID-19 psychosis that is all but bottomless, and very dark. This explained it all. It made complete sense to me with a clarity I’ve rarely experienced. I saw a kind of perfect storm in which so many have gotten swept up in utterly unaware of what was happening to them, is happening to them. In a strange way, I even felt at ease. The world had gone wildly awry but at least now I knew why.
These days, however, I’m coming around to thinking it’s even more troubling than the hypnosis of mass formation and the lockstep of true believers. That is all but a consequence of a strategy deployed by more troubling dwellers amongst us.
It is impossible for us to know for certain what the writer (most likely not Paul himself) of the Letter to the Ephesians had in mind when warning his readers about the “spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.” Back then, Ephesus was a large seaport city in present-day Turkey, where some early Christians—including Paul himself—had gone to spread the gospel. Jewish people had long lived there, as well as a scattering of magicians and soothsayers and those who venerated local heroes and pagan deities, particularly the Greek goddess, Artemis. Some in the academy say this passage from the Letter to the Ephesians is about the struggle back then between those united in the mystery of Christ and the rulers of “this present darkness,” or the temporal world. The self-proclaimed laws of Judaism, which had long created a barrier between Jews and gentiles—and pagans, for that matter—has given way to the creation of a new, universal human being who has been granted access to the divine promises through Christ and without the law. The law has come to an end. Thus, there is neither Jew nor gentile but a radical transformation of individuals into a community of believers reconciled to one another and to God.
The notions of good and evil are central to almost every religion throughout time with various depictions of what evil actually is. Today, those citing this passage from the Letter to the Ephesians as a way to see beyond the veil into what’s really going on understand that our struggles against corruption and conquest—then and now and for all time—is literally a battle of good versus evil. That evil exists outside of us and is not just an inherent tendency in every human being which tempts us to do wrong. That the battles of peoples against peoples here on earth have always been spiritual. That the enemies we face, ultimately, are not other people. That evil uses us in a thousand ways by beguiling unstable souls, but that our true opponents are not “blood and flesh.” That the evil in the “heavenly places” denotes a battle beyond this world but one in which are mere pawns on a sinister, multi-level chess board who are manipulated to turn on each other, to divide and conquer—after all, a house divided cannot stand—in a crusade to subjugate humanity and take over Earth itself. That evil has one main weapon that it employs most effectively: the power of lies to deceive.
I, too, am beginning to believe that this present catastrophe is indeed the latest manifestation of an ongoing spiritual battle simply because it seems that nothing as evil as what’s been happening before our very eyes and behind closed doors these past two years could have ever been contrived by the human race. To be sure, there have been countless human calamities and unthinkable massacres and epochs of misery throughout time immemorial, people deceiving and slaughtering and enslaving other people all over the world time and time and time again. But who’s to say that these horrific upheavals weren’t also the delightful dreams of demons? Far be it from me these days to refute this claim. Yet here we stand, a testament to the timeless human spirit, doing battle once again.
You might be thinking that I’ve really gone out of my mind. This assessment on the current state of affairs may seem a bit out there, I admit. But I didn’t all of a sudden get religion, as you know from my many years in seminary and my ongoing exploration of all things spiritual. Still, to be honest, I never thought it would come to this. Yet truly, what sort of human being—people like you, me, our friends, our parents, our siblings, our colleagues, the people working the cash registers in the grocery stores, bank clerks, bus drivers, teachers, chefs, your mail person…. who on earth wants to live in a world at war all the time? No one I know, I’ll tell you that much. And we’re at war, make no mistake about it. It’s a stealth war that is being waged without anyone ever firing a gun.
For two years, we’ve been caught up in a world where friends and family members avoid each other as if the other is radioactive; millions of healthy, robust people around the world are being fired from their jobs and deprived of their livelihoods because they refuse to be injected with an experimental substance that was never designed prevent infection or transmission, and is causing tremendous suffering and deaths while concerned doctors, scientists, and the COVID-19 vaccine injured are being censored and deplatformed; we’ve been forced to wear masks and have forced our children to wear masks so we can’t see each other smile and despite evidence of serious physical risks, such as bacterial pneumonia, gum disease leading to heart problems, disfiguring skin infections, and cognitive impairment from hypoxia; we’ve been denouncing each other over who’s vaccinated and who’s not, blaming each other for spreading the virus, making others sick, overwhelming hospitals; we’ve been subjected to bribes from state governments and corporations and even schools to get everyone vaccinated. I remember when the New Jersey Department of Health enticed a child to pressure parents with a commercial of a boy asking Santa for the COVID vaccineinstead of games and toys. Who on earth in their right mind could have—or would have—ever come up with such a diabolical scheme? I’d venture to say that not even the most depraved, clinically diagnosed human psychopaths are this clever.
Before I sat down to write this letter I took a long walk on a gray, blustery afternoon here in my pleasant neighborhood in Upstate New York. I wanted to stretch my legs and shift through all my thoughts on this topic, to mull things over to determine if what I wanted to write to you really did make sense to me and if I could write it in a way that I could have it make sense to you. I also thought about the lifting of the mask and vaccine mandates suddenly unfolding in some states and other countries, and what that might mean for all of us. I’ll leave you with some brief thoughts about that.
It’s easy to think this pivoting has nothing to do with “science” and “data” since all of that was phony the past two years, anyway. It’s easy to think it’s nothing more than a pathetic attempt of the bluechecks in public office in Washington and a number of states to claw back from their low poll ratings in time to keep their jobs before the midterm elections. It’s easy to think they’re trying to make themselves look good by saying they’ve saved us from the virus and are now giving back our freedoms. Freedoms, by the way, that should never have been taken away in the first place. Those who’ve robbed us of so much will now be claiming victory.
But there might be something more insidious going on regarding this about face. It might be like a kind of recess schools offer to beleaguered students, a few moments to go outside and play and let off some steam. But sooner or later you have to go back inside and line up and learn your lessons. In other words, we may not be done with this ruinous death march of truth and freedom to their graves. No demon goes down easily. So much planned demolition has been done to everyone and everything, and so much brainwashing, that there may well be another virus coming from some far-flung corner of the world. And it will be proclaimed to be more deadly than anything ever before. Then the captured media and, more appallingly, the captured populace who’ve been taken in by the ongoing charade, are going to do the dirty work of their fascist overlords like possessed deputized vigilantes.
Within the past few weeks, a newfound variant of HIV, the virus that causes AIDS, has been reportedly uncovered in the Netherlands and is claimed to be highly virulent and more transmissible than other versions of HIV. Already the flames of fear are being stoked to make sure everyone gets tested for AIDS right away. Prince Harry is sounding the alarm in a video insisting that we all have a “duty” to get HIV tested “to make it easier for everyone else to get tested.” Moderna and International AIDS Vaccine Initiative have already launched the clinical trial of an experimental HIV vaccine that utilizes the same mRNA technology used in some COVID-19 vaccines. There’s even been speculation that the Chinese Communist Party and the People’s Liberation Army are releasing a new, engineered bioweapon among athletes and participants at the Beijing Olympic games. This deliberate release is timed to infect participants from dozens of countries around the world, who will then unknowingly transport hemorrhagic fever to their home countries, unleashing another wave of a global pandemic.
On top of that, in the months to come, based some of the things I’ve been reading, many of the nearly 5 billion victims worldwide who’ve been given the jabs are going to become sick and die at higher rate than they already have been—remember that “all-cause” mortality I mentioned above?—because, in part, the jabs might have confused and compromised their victims’ natural immunity due to what’s being called Vaccine Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome. Already, doctors are testifying that COVID-19 vaccines are giving people cancer and AIDS. For your sake and for the sake of others who’ve been jabbed, I hope that this does not happen. But if it does, I would wager that the unjabbed like me, who all this time have gone on with our lives as best we can and for the most part have been very well, thank you very much, are going to be blamed by the same gang that all along has been blaming us for spreading the virus, catching the virus, overwhelming hospitals, and hindering life from getting returning to normal—all of it the work of evil.
Turning all these things over in my mind, I nearly ran back home, feeling I had not another moment to lose. I put another log on the fire in my woodstove, blew into my hands to warm them up, and began to write this letter about the evil amongst us because that’s what I believe is happening. As your friend, I wanted to let you know so you can prepare for what may be coming. And to ask you to pray.
Someday down the road I might come to a different conclusion in my constant search for understanding and meaning underlying the absolutely horrific and heartbreaking abyss humanity has been backed into, once again. For now, this world that had made no sense to me for so long is now beginning to make sense to me when I reflect on the Letter to the Ephesians. To me and to others it explains what’s going on perhaps not only better than any other words in scripture, but also better than anything else that we’ve come across. Talk about a rude awakening.
Reprinted with the author’s permission.
James Kullander writes at the intersection of current affairs, history, theology, and memoir. Email: email@example.com
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